Made to Crave: God, not food
Ever since I started my weight loss journey, the one where I really meant it (big smile here), I’ve learned a LOT about my God, about my relationship with God. And I got to a point where I realized I could not do it on my own. I needed God to help me.
I started searching the Bible for words of comfort, for words of encouragement. I filled most of my “spiral” with Scripture that I memorized to keep me going. Then I got sick. Real sick. And all of a sudden my whole weight loss was thrown over board. For the first 4 months after my surgery I did not gain any weight. But the last few months have been real hard again. It’s hard to get back on schedule, when you’re still not feeling 100%. And then my treadmill broke, so there was an added interruption with the exercise side of my program. And then I realized that my right shoulder, that I hurt sometime in December, was not healing, it actually got worse. So I finally saw my doctor about it. Of course, she forbid me to do any exercise for a few weeks. But I thought, I might still be able to continue. Which of course I could not.
Well, you get the picture here. It’s hard to stay on course with all the interruptions that life throws at you.
And then I met “Made to Crave”, a book by Lysa TerKeurst. A really amazing book. I read through it in a few days. And I could not believe it, it was just what I had experienced during my journey and what I’m still going through. But I’m so glad someone really talented put it into words. All that I was learning on this journey was, you have to make sure God is #1 in your life. And that’s exactly what Lysa is talking about: I am made to crave God, not food. This whole addiction to food just got so out of hand, until I realized that I was having one health problem after another… And the stress level I was living at was not helping either. So a combination of a lot of things just got me to a place where I had to make this decision to seriously loose the weight.
“More often than not, habits are too light to be felt until they’re too strong to be broken.” (A quote by someone. I don’t have the name.)
Here is another quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson who lived from 1803-1882:
If you sow a thought, you will reap an action.
If you sow an action, you will reap a habit.
If you sow a habit, you will reap character.
If you sow character, you will reap destiny.
It’s this staying on course, no matter what, that requires my focus, my discipline. I need this strength to pick myself up again and continue. And I’m just so grateful to God for His help, for His encouragement. Right now I’m memorizing Psalm 46:1 “God is my refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble.” I just have to remind myself over and over again, that if I crave God more than anything else, I’ll be truly satisfied, and I won’t crave any food that’s not good for me. Ultimately, I need to put God first, not just when it comes to food, but with everything. Whether I crave to read a good thriller, to watch a movie or a show, to go shopping or even sewing (I’m into sewing right now), if I shift my focus on these things and concentrate on them more than on God, I’m losing again…
This morning I read in Matthew 4:10b, “You must worship the LORD your God and serve only him.” Jesus quoted these words to Satan, when he was tempted in the wilderness. So I have added this Scripture to my “spiral”, to remind me of my focus, of my goal.
By the way, if you’d like to check out the “Made to Crave” topic, check out the webcasts that will be running for the next 5 Tuesdays on http://www.madetocrave.org/