As a single parent decision making has been one of my biggest struggles. Especially when I know a decision will have consequences for years to come.
My father and one of my brothers had chosen a car for me when we returned to Canada. It was a small car, perfect for the 4 of us. My brother had negotiated the price, I only had to bring my cheque book, pay for it and drive it home.
Six years later my car met up not with one, but with two deer on the highway. I was devastated when the insurance appraiser called with the news that the car had to be written off, they would only pay out a few thousand for it. How was I supposed to buy a reliable car with this small amount of money?
I had about two weeks to make a decision. Should I risk it and buy an old car? What if it needed repairs or broke down, how would I pay for it? Or should I risk it and buy a new car? A car loan would mean payments for the next five years. It would I be very tight financially for these five years.
I prayed for a sign. I wanted a sign. I was desperate for a sign.
But there was no sign. I took the first step and researched and read many reviews on cars. I took another step and visited a car dealership. I prayed like mad those days and nights. I wanted someone else to make this decision for me. But there was no one to do it for me. This time I had to make the decision. I signed the purchase papers and the car loan documents. A few days later I came to pick up my car. I was shaking and nauseous when I received the car keys.
It started to rain as I drove off the dealership’s parking lot. I stopped for gas before heading home. I paid for the gas and returned to the car. All of a sudden the sky broke open, the rain stopped and the biggest double rainbow appeared!
God answered my prayers! He gave me a sign. A sign of His promise.
12 “And I seal this promise with this sign: 13 I have placed my rainbow in the clouds as a sign of my promise until the end of time, to you and to all the earth. 14 When I send clouds over the earth, the rainbow will be seen in the clouds, 15 and I will remember my promise to you and to every being, that never again will the floods come and destroy all life. 16-17 For I will see the rainbow in the cloud and remember my eternal promise to every living being on the earth.” Genesis 9:12-17 The Living Bible
I couldn’t start the car. I sat and wept. I knew without a shadow of a doubt God was with me. We would be ok financially. He would provide all we needed. And He really did.
God sealed His promise to Noah with the sign of a rainbow. Every time I see a rainbow I am reminded of God’s faithfulness.
“Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise.” Hebrews 10:23 New Living Translation