When I Open My Eyes

This morning I came to work. And like every morning I started out by preparing the coffee for the staff coffee break and by preparing my tea for the day. When I reached for the handle on my little filing cabinet that I use for my personal items, something stopped me. I looked at the front of my cabinet. I really looked. And I couldn’t believe what I saw.
There were stains all over the front. Some kind of brownish fluid had run down the front of my cabinet. When did this happen? I couldn’t remember spilling anything in the last few weeks. Oh my goodness! Are these stains really THAT old??? How did I not see them?
It does not look as bad here on the picture as it actually did.
I wish I had taken a few more shots before I cleaned it!
Well, I guess, I wasn’t really looking. I probably was multi-tasking, as I always do. My thoughts going a thousand miles an hour… Yes, I’m sure my eyes were open, since I did pick the right tea bags morning after morning. But I did not really see.
Once I saw those ugly stains, I started looking around the office. And sure enough, I found more stains, also probably months old. Like on my little office heater…
That’s how much dirt was on the heater and on my filing cabinet!
That is so embarrassing, right? I looked, but I did not see!
As I mentioned in previous posts, I’m part of the online Bible study group called Good Morning Girls. And we’ve been studying the book of 1 John. John talks a lot about many contrasts in this book:
Sin & Forgiveness
Light & Darkness
Loving & Hating
Truth & Lies
Words & Actions
And these stains in my office just reminded me of how sin in my life can creep in when I’m not looking. Or maybe I’m looking, but not really seeing. When I make it a habit of cleaning my cupboards regularly, when I make it a habit of really seeing, then I can regularly, right away clean up these stains, these messes. I was reminded of 1 John 1:8-9:
“If we claim we have no sin, we are only fooling ourselves and not living in the truth.
But if we confess our sins to him (Jesus),
he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.”
I need to confess daily or even more. But at least daily. Yes, confession takes time. Confession humbles me. Confession cleanses me. We might think that our catholic brothers and sisters and their rituals of confession are weird, but there is something very valuable in confession.
If I don’t confess, I actually claim to have no sin, and therefore I’m “only fooling” myself and “not living in the truth.” (1 John 1:8)
When did you last confess your sins to Jesus?
“… he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.”
I sure don’t want any stains or dirt or sins to accummulate. I want to make this a daily ritual to go to Jesus and confess. What about you?

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